I hope everyone enjoyed the past few days! I did for the most part, though I'm afraid that there's a cloud hanging over my Thanksgiving weekend. We'll get to that in a minute...
The past few days were spend with family enjoying good food, movies, sleeping in and Christmas decorating and shopping.
Wednesday night, I watched Run Fatboy Run. I totally recommend this movie whether you run or not. I think that it's especially appealing to us runners because of this fun story about a non-runner going out to run a marathon. However, it's got a lot of comedy and a sweet little love story that makes this movie one that I think a lot of people would enjoy.
Thursday morning I ran in our local Thanksgiving 5-miler. I finished with a time of 45:11, which is fine by me under the circumstances. Again, we'll get to all this.
I spent that afternoon taking it easy and watching the movie Get Smart. I also enjoyed this one. I like both Steve Carell and Anne Hathaway, so it was fun to watch them together. They seem like an unlikely match, but they make it work. That evening was spent with all of my extended family watching football and eating a lot of good food.
Friday I got up and drove to the running store to pick up a foam roller. They finally had them! I was particularly pleased that they also provided me with a packet that shows pictures of how to do various things with the roller. Then, I met up with my mom and sister for a little Christmas shopping. It was a LONG day (and we didn't even start until after lunch), but I got most of my Christmas shopping other than a few things wrapped up (pun intended).
Saturday I spent the day helping get the tree up at my parent's house, and Sunday I took it easy most of the day. I went to yoga. I also watched This Christmas, a movie that I think came out last Christmas with Chris Brown. Yes, he sings in the movie. This may be one of the best "new" Christmas movies I've seen in the past few years. If you want something different this year, go rent this. I think you'll enjoy.
So.... back to my hints that something is not ok. I had some soreness in my hip last Saturday that got me a little worried. It had been feeling better, but by about mile 3 of my race on Thursday it was seriously hurting. There's a big difference between soreness and pain. I had been running 8:30 m/miles, but by the end I was running more of a 10:00 m/m pace. I seriously wanted to cry by the time I crossed that finish line. If it was that hard to run 5 miles, how the heck am I supposed to run 26.2 in like 9 days?
I spent a lot of time on Thursday with an ice pack on it. I was on my feet for 9 hours on Friday, but it definitely bothered me just walking around. Saturday it started to feel better, but then on Sunday it hurt almost as bad as Thursday. I figured yoga probably couldn't hurt, and today I'm thinking that maybe it did help. It's still very present, but it doesn't hurt nearly as bad.
I decided that I won't run any more between Thursday's race and Saturday's. Trying to run a few last miles will not help, and it won't hurt me to skip them at this point. I'm taking ibuprofen as much as allowed, and I'm rotating ice and heat on my hip when I'm at home. I've been using the foam roller and trying to stretch.
I don't give up easily. But I also know that it's not smart to do something that will hurt more than help. So I'm considering not trying to run in the marathon on Saturday.
You have no idea how hard it is for me to even allow that thought to come into my mind. That's how much it hurts. There are numerous things on my mind about this.
For starters, I have no idea what's really wrong. Do I just need a few days of rest? Does something need to be stretched out? Is there something bigger going on that I'll need to see a doctor about?
Then there's the frustration. Frustration that I've made it through all these months of training and NOW this happens. Sure, I've had some aches and pains. Sure, I've had a few doubts here and there. Why is it that I get plagued with something that makes it painful to run right before my big race. There's also the frustration that I've been training for months for this day, and now I might not even be able to do it.
There's always a chance that it'll feel fine by Saturday. I'm trying to be realistic. I know the difference between something I can run through and something I can't, and if this is still bothering me Saturday, I can't run a full. Maybe I could walk/trot my way through it, but then it comes back to the fact that I don't know if it's something serious that running 26.2 miles on could inflict damage. I want to run MANY more marathons, not just this one on Saturday.
So I've decided to allow myself to think of just doing the half-marathon. I've already talked to the marathon people and found out that if I get to mile 12.5 where the two races split and don't think I can make it, I can turn and take the half-marathon finish.
Believe me, I don't want to do that. I WANT to run the full. But I also want to be able to run more soon, and I don't want to hurt myself.
There's no way to know if I'll feel fine by Saturday or not. I'll stick to my plan of deciding that day what to do. If I can't run the full, it's going to suck. I've really been depressed over all of this the past few days. It's hard to let go of the full. Maybe I won't have to, but I'm keeping myself open to the thought of having to switch races.
I know it's not the end of the world. I know there will be other races. But that's not really the point. I'm ready for this one... except for my stupid hip.
No matter what happens, I will run a race on Saturday. I will cross a finish line. I will get a medal. And I will be proud that I went out there and did it.
I will take the rest of the month of December off from running. I will pick back up with some light runs in January. If my hip still hurts then (after 4 weeks of rest!), then I'll know it's a bigger deal than just an overuse injury that needs rest and I'll go to a doc. I want to be back up and running in January, and then aim for running the Little Rock marathon in March.
I suppose I'm just worried about the whole "what if resting it for a few weeks before January isn't enough and then I have to wait even longer for it to get better and run another one than what I'd like?"
It'll will all be ok no matter what. I know this. I'm just feeling a little blue and worried and bummed out.
I've never had something hurt enough that I felt like I couldn't run. It just seriously sucks.
Sorry for ending this on such a sad note. I promise that I wno't feel sorry for myself anymore after this post. I just needed to get it out. I'm trying to stay optimistic. I'll have a great weekend and a great race day no matter what. It'll just be better if my hip suddenly gets better and I can run the full.
And by the way... if I'm able to run the full, at this point I couldn't give a crap about my time or my PR or anything. I'll be happy to finish.