Friday, December 5, 2008

Doctor Says...

He can't be sure yet, but he thinks I more than likely have a stress fracture.

I tried really hard to not start crying. It couldn't be helped. He's a nice guy and handed me a box of tissues. Clearly I'm not the only one who's cried over such a thing. That made me feel a little better.

Apparently an X-Ray won't show a stress fracture. (Gee, thanks for taking them and billing them when they were worthless.) So I have to go back on Tuesday for an MRI, and then on Friday to see him again and get the results and a treatment plan.

He said it could still be some other things like bursitis or something similar. I'm going to keep hoping for that. If I have a stress fracture, I'll have to be on crutches for a while.

With that said, he told me not to be running (of course) and said he'd discourage me from even walking the half since walking can make a hip stress fracture worse.

I'm really disappointed. I had so hoped he'd be able to easily say it was something else, anything else... something that I could maybe still run the half on.

And crutches? Boy, that's going to suck. Especially over the holidays.

I'll deal with it. The most important thing is to get healed so I can get back to running and start again. It's just not easy to remember that today. I feel so many different things. Disappointment I can't run the race I've been training for. Frustration that I put in so much time and work and now have to stand on the sidelines. A little bit annoyed that other people run so much more than I do and never get hurt, and I did everything right and still ended up getting hurt. Depressed that there's a good chance I won't be running for a couple of months, so I'll lose all this fitness I built up these past 4 months and have to start all over, and probably very slowly.

Like I said, I'll deal. I'm tough and don't usually let things keep me down. And there's still a chance it's not a stress fracture, but he seemed to think it's a small chance.

So today... right now... I'm sad. I'm disappointed. I'm frustrated. But I'm going to do my best to get the tears out, put on a smile and go to Memphis with my parents and friends and have a good weekend. Be back Monday.

13 comments:

*aron* said...

oh no!!! what a bummer :( i dont even know what to say. hang in there... after you are sad just try to stay positive. everything happens for a reason even though it doesn't seem like there could possibly be one for this.

((((HUGS)))) being sent your way!!!

Rachel Ann said...

I'm sorry. I hope whatever it is that you heal quickly. At least you know that you can regain all of your fitness and that you're entering into this time very fit, so you won't lose too, too much. I hope you still enjoy your weekend and I think it's more than okay to cry about something that means a lot to you.

Mojito Maven said...

ahhhhhhh melanie!!! i'm so sorry! I can only imagine how disappointed you are!! I had a stress fracture my sophomore year of high school when i attempted to run cross country in both my ankles and i was on crutches for 2 months AND I almost missed my swimming nationals (note to self...why did i think it was a good idea to start running in the middle of my swimming season??).n *HUGS* I'll be praying for you and a healthy recovery!!!!

Mrs. Stilettos said...

I am so so sorry...I can't even imagine how dissapointed you are. Hang in there...there will be plenty of more times to run!

btw - so glad I found your blog today! I'm going to start training for my first 1/2 marathon that is in may and I'll need all the support I can get and it sounds like you will need mine too!

Alissa said...

Hey Melanie, I'm so glad you went to the doc. Just think, if you had run with a stress fracture, it could have turned into a real fracture and that would have been 1000 times worse, requiring surgery and all that. Here's a bit of hope for you. A few years ago I had a pain in my hip a lot like you are describing. So painful to run! Doc was sure it was stress fracture too even though it didn't show up on the initial xray. Well it didn't show up on the MRI either. Ended up being diagnosed as bursitus. I didn't believe it since I was in so much pain, but the exercises the the Physical Therapist gave me ended up working so that must have been what it was!

Sending hugs your way. I would be frustrated too. Hang in there!

Amy said...

I'm really sorry to hear that! :( But try to enjoy the weekend with your friends and family anyway!

Eric said...

This is just a stone in the journey enjoy the holidays rest rest rest and drink an in the new year you will be back on track

Miss Gallery Place said...

I'm so sad for you! I loved reading about your training and YOU are my inspiration just so you know <3 I know it's tough, and disappointing but it's only a couple months, you'll get back into it <3 <3

and cry all you want, especially after all the hard work you put into it. (but at least you went to the doctors and you're not making it worse!!)

**sending hugs your way** Have a great time in memphis anyhow!

J said...

Oh girlie! I am so sorry. I hope that you have a speedy recovery no matter if it is a stress fracture or something else. Please remember we are all here for you and want you to get back to running!! Its ok to be disappointed! Let it all out! You love running and it is only fair!!

Marathon Maritza said...

I'm so sorry, Melanie! I know you are very disappointed and it's definitely ok to cry and let out your frustrations. Do what you have to do now, so that when the Dr. gives you your treatment/recovery plan, you can tackle it full force.

It's hard to think about right now, but the most important thing is your health. Running will still be waiting for you when you are back well.

Hugs to you!!!

Playful Professional said...

Aww I'm so sorry. That sucks especially after you've been such a great job training :(

Rachel H. said...

I know how you feel. I have a stress fracture in my back, and it's made me so sad. I haven't even posted about running or working out in a long time, because I don't want to. Thinking about it makes me really want to cry! So, I don't run as much as you do, but I do feel your pain.

Shoe Running said...

Oh man! I'm so sorry! I really hope you heal up soon! You are strong, you'll get better soon.