I've been contemplating today if I should say what I'm about to say... I could just ignore it and go on about my merry, cheerful way. However, I'm not feeling merry or cheerful right now, and even in writing I can't just pretend like everything is perfect right now. I don't feel like it'd be appropriate to share why I am feeling a little down and out today either.
So let's do it like this: I had a pretty craptastic weekend that has caused me to feel a bit down and out. To make it worse, I woke up today with a scratchy throat that now feels like a very swollen throat. So not only am I feeling a little blue, I am now also feeling sick.
I need running back. I rarely feel ill when I run. More than that, I can usually blow off steam or let out emotions I'm feeling when I can go for a run.
When I was sitting in my floor this morning and putting on my shoes, some of the lyrics from Coldplay's song "Lost" went through my head. I feel like it'd be overdramatic to say I feel lost right now, but I do feel a little off after all these weeks of not running, and my feelings about it kind of connect with that song.
I'm sure my emotions will pass, and you'll find me back to my normal happy self in no time. But for today, I'm in a really blue sort of mood. And I don't like it one bit.
I'm in no way trying to solicit sympathy, especially since I don't feel like publicly sharing what's up. But I'm putting it out there... I honestly feel really unhappy today. I always bounce back, but for today... it sucks.