Monday, January 26, 2009

A Blue World Today

I've been contemplating today if I should say what I'm about to say... I could just ignore it and go on about my merry, cheerful way. However, I'm not feeling merry or cheerful right now, and even in writing I can't just pretend like everything is perfect right now. I don't feel like it'd be appropriate to share why I am feeling a little down and out today either.

So let's do it like this: I had a pretty craptastic weekend that has caused me to feel a bit down and out. To make it worse, I woke up today with a scratchy throat that now feels like a very swollen throat. So not only am I feeling a little blue, I am now also feeling sick.

I need running back. I rarely feel ill when I run. More than that, I can usually blow off steam or let out emotions I'm feeling when I can go for a run.

When I was sitting in my floor this morning and putting on my shoes, some of the lyrics from Coldplay's song "Lost" went through my head. I feel like it'd be overdramatic to say I feel lost right now, but I do feel a little off after all these weeks of not running, and my feelings about it kind of connect with that song.

I'm sure my emotions will pass, and you'll find me back to my normal happy self in no time. But for today, I'm in a really blue sort of mood. And I don't like it one bit.

I'm in no way trying to solicit sympathy, especially since I don't feel like publicly sharing what's up. But I'm putting it out there... I honestly feel really unhappy today. I always bounce back, but for today... it sucks.

11 comments:

aron said...

sorry girlie (((HUGS))))

last week i was having a crappy week too and it all went away when i went running, so not being able to do that would just plain suck.

hang in there - hope you feel better soon!

Carlee said...

Obviously I don't know exactly how you feel...but I've had times like those. Ones that don't feel like they'll go away. Sometimes I just need to admit to needing some alone time; sometimes I even need to just cry without explaining why. I hope you feel better soon. You could also chock part of the down feeling to getting sick too.

Jackie said...

I think a lot of people are feeling the winter blahs. I hope whatever is making you blue is resolved soon! Keep your chin up :)

J said...

I hope things get better for you! I have had those days and they just stink!

Rachel H. said...

Thinking of you and sending thoughts and prayers your way! I can relate and know how you feel! :) It's been a tough time for me lately too! Though it should be the happiest time ever!

*One Step at a Time* said...

Melanie--
I am so sorry to hear about this. If it means anything, I know how you feel...kind of. I have doctors orders not to run outside until April because I have frostbite on my toes and live in a cold climate. It is KILLING me. Running is a release and a necessity. I have also been having many health/emotional associated with not running.
You however have come SO far! You are so close to being able to run again! Hang in there, girlie! You can do it and have so much love and support in your life! <3

~Mrs. Guru~ said...

I will keep you in my prayers! Remember God is always there.

NiC said...

Our blog titles are similar! Great minds think alike!

Jocelyn said...

I hate crappy days/weekend/weeks. Things will get better :)

Alissa said...

Hey Melanie, I hope things get better for you soon. Hopefully you are able to run again soon. In the mean time, maybe the pool can help you get out some of your frustrations? I'm sending hugs your way!

Amanda said...

Not running really does contribute to blue moods, at least for me. That sucks, I'm sorry you're down and hope you're feeling better soon.