Wednesday, May 6, 2009

"The future is no place to place your better days..."

One of the many reasons why I'm such a DMB fan? His amazing lyrics like that one...

So I've mentioned a few times over the past few weeks that things have not been going as well as I'd like lately. One or two of these things are still issues, but I still don't find it quite right to discuss on here.

However, I'm ready to talk about one of them.

I'm no longer employed full-time.

For a few days, I thought I might be completely losing my job. I work for a small company, and we have not been immune to all the stuff going on in the economy. I know my boss hates to let any of us go, and he told us that if we had another offer somewhere then take it. One of the guys I work with is married and has a little one, so he moved forward with another job.

Being single and having little expenses, I was prepared to go on unemployment and spend some time really thinking hard about what the future holds for me. I do a lot of administrative tpye stuff in my current position, and while I love doing it in this particular role at this business, I have NO desire to do it anywhere else. My heart is in the publishing industry, and that's where I want to be eventually.

Fortunately, things aren't so bad that I need to completely walk away. My boss and I have arranged for me to work 20 hours a week for the time being. If things get worse, then I'll leave. If things get better, I'll increase my hours again. It means half my pay since I'll be working half the hours, but I am incredibly frugal and save a ton each month, so I'm ok to live on less for a few months. I think I can swing it without having to dip into savings as long as I don't go overboard on spending, but that's also what the savings is there for...

I'm actually really ok with it all now. It was a little disconcerting at first, but now I've figured out that I can sleep in a bit and then go get a run in or go to the gym each day. I'm going to be in better shape than ever before I think! Then I'll shower, have lunch, and come in to work 4 hours each afternoon. I'll still be done at 3:30 (and will already have my run or gym time done), so I will have time to do whatever else I need to do.

It's easy to sit here and wonder what the future holds... I know that there's a good chance I'll ultimately have to find another job eventually. But I can't really think much about all of that. I want to be present. I want to live my life now. I do think there's a world of change on the horizon for my life (and I'll admit, sometimes it takes me a little time to adapt to big changes). For the meantime, I want to make the most of where I'm at now. It's pretty awesome that I'm going to have a lot of extra time on my hands and that my daily schedule is going to be the way it is for a little while.

I'm also contemplating takig a trip. I don't want to say too much until I sort out the details and figure out the when and the where and such, but I figure that now is probably one of the best times for me to go do something really fun. Sure, I probably shouldn't spend the money when I'm bringing home less, but that's part of why I stay on top of my savings so well. Plus, all things travel are getting less and less expensive right now. I love a good deal.

I'm still feeling a little overwhelmed by how my life has kind of turned upside down a bit lately, but at the same time I'm kind of excited about the changes. It felt good to sleep in this morning. I know it's going to be great tomorrow to sleep in, go run a few miles, go to work and then have the whole afternoon and evening free to run some errands with my mom and have dinner.

I'll probably keep my eyes and ears open for odd jobs to earn some extra cash. I'm looking into a tutoring program, and I figure I'll let the people I used to babysit for know that I have daytime availability again.

In other news, I turned on the weather today and it shows rain for the next 7 days. It's been raining since last week. Seriously, it's getting old.

When I went for my 5-mile run yesterday, I went to our local greenway. I planned to run 2.5 miles out and then turn around to run back to my car. I only got to about 1.25 and couldn't go any further because the creek was flooded and covered the path, and there was no way to get to where the greenway picked up again on the other side. I mean, I could have swam across, but that seemed excessive. So I ran back and then turned around and repeated everything again. With all the rain in the forecast, it's looking like I might not get to run more than 1.25 miles out on that path for a while.


Eric said...

Sad to hear that about your job but good spirits will bring something better as for your free time you can increase training little by little and you could have a solid chicago marathon yo can start running twice a day 3 times a week if you that for 2 or 3 month you are going to be rocking for chicago
enjoy your future trip
and hope the job situation gets better soon

peachy perspective said...


But you have a great attitude and I'm sure a great work ethic, and those aspects will always work to your advantage.

I will keep my ears open for possibilities!

Jocelyn said...

that bites about the job. No one seems to be untouched by the economy. Hope things get better soon!

J said...

Sorry to hear about your situation. Hopefully either you will get your hours back or find another job that you like. It is nice to have that free time to work out though!

Nicole said...

I feel bad for you, but we've talked and were on the same page.

That said, I'm SO happy for you! A vacation, not losing your job & more time for running and other fun things! Your probably never going to want to work full time again.

I work 20-30 hours a week-- and to be honest, i dont know if i'll ever be able to do more than that. and if and when i did, it would take a very long time to get used to it! :)

Amanda said...

I hate to hear that your job is uncertain, but it seems like you have the right attitude and are making the best of things!