Normally when I'm getting ready to run a marathon, I'm thinking about it a LOT more. I'm thinking about food. I'm looking at the weather forecast every couple of hours in the days before it. I'm reading every word on the race website. I'm planning out an expo strategy.
But not this time, and for numerous reasons.
For starters, there are other priorities in my life right now, and my mind is elsewhere. I don't have the time or brain power to focus on more. And I'm ok with that. I know that my mind will probably be there while I'm running, but hey... 26.2 miles is definitely a good opportunity to do some thinking. :)
And then it's just never been a race I've wanted to do to race. I've just wanted to do it to say I did. I want the chance to run across the Golden Gate Bridge. I want to stop and take pictures along the way and use it to sightsee.
Still, it's hard to not feel kind of nervous. I think I probably shouldn't be running it. I didn't train properly, and the past 2 weeks in particular have been lacking because of other priorities.
But I'll go out there. I'll run a lot. I'll walk a lot. I'll have a lot of time to think about my life back in the central time zone. And I know it'll be good for me. That finish line and that medal won't be about the time on the clock... it's going to be about so much more for me. It's going to be that I got to see a city I've always wanted to visit. It's going to be that I ran across that famous bridge. It's going to be that I did something really challenging that I wasn't really prepared for at a time when I could use the sense of satisfaction for achieving it anyways.
There is much to be thankful for in my life right now, and this trip and this marathon is one of them. I kind of wish some other things were different as I head out there, but I am confident that where I'm at today is exactly what's supposed to be happening... it's what is right. And there is joy in that. There is peace in that. So I'll go run this marathon, even though it's going to be tough... even though I'm not prepared... even though my mind is elsewhere... even though nothing about the experience is quite what I had planned when I signed up a while back.
Trip posts to come upon my return.
PS - I'll miss you.