There are seasons in life where I think I go into a kind of survival mode... it can be a result of many different kinds of things. "Survival" is kind of a strong word, but it's the best word I can think to describe what that season can feel like.
It's a time where I can't turn my overanalytical brain off. It's a time where I have a bit of anxiety. It's a time where I can't really eat or sleep as well as normal.
So I have to find distractions. Sometimes I need multiple distractions.
Lately? It's definitely been some of the stuff I've written about... Trying new things. Planning trips.
And watching Friday Night Lights. I'm almost done with the fourth of five seasons. I have to say it's one of the best tv shows I've watched in a while.
I have laughed. I have cried. I have remembered stuff I hadn't thought about from when I was in high school 11 years ago. In some ways it's a lot like what I remember high school being like, and in some ways it's a little exaggerated in the way many tv shows can be.
I feel like it's lost a little of its luster in season 4, but I still can't stop watching.
One of my most favorite recent episodes shows the rivalry between two football teams, and it reminds me of the rivalry we had when I was in school. In the show, one team plants like a bazillion toothpicks in the other team's field. But in return, that team comes and completely destroys their field.
When I was in school, someone took a chicken to the other team's field. I thought it was pretty clever... mostly harmless, called them chickens, etc. But then they came and burned their letters into our field.
I guess it just reminds me that there are always kids who know how to conduct a harmless and funny prank, but then there are other kids who only know how to vandalize.
Anyways. The point is... I feel like for right now, I'm in a season where I'm trying to distract myself a bit. And something I've learned as I've gotten older is that it's totally ok to do that.